Sunday night thinking

I have talked too much about my health, my weight, my debts and my job. Let's talk about something else.

I am addicted to TV but just certain shows. The longest addiction is to Coronation Street -- I love it. I watch at night or on Sundays (not so much since it is about 7 til noon). If I don't see it on TV, I will watch it online to catch up on missed shows. I will also go to a website to see what is happening in England as we are about 6 months behind then.

Next would have to be the people of the Young & Restless - I love this show because it is so not real. Let me explain that. The people are all mostly rich, the young people don't seem to have jobs or they get these fabulous jobs without any training. And it is such a closed group - one woman has married Nick, divorced him, married him again, divorced him, married his brother Adam, divorced him, sort of got back with Nick but then that didn't work, and she recently married their fsther, Victor.

I wonder where people get the ideas for these stories (both Corrie and Y&R) Do people really live like they do? How do they come up with these stories and keep them going for all these years.

I think that it would be wonderful to be able to write

stories either to be on TV or in books that people will watch/read and love and remember for years.

I remember a book that I read when I was in Elementary School. It was called Jennifer, Hecate, Macbeth, William McKinley, and Me, Elizabeth.

Elizabeth is a little girl who meets Jennifer and Jennifer claims to be a real Witch. Elizabeth tells the story from her point of view. I can't remember the whole story but have always remembered the name.

Could I be a writer and write something that people would remember and / or watch - nope, I don't think so.

But I do love good stories. What are your good stories - a show you love, a book that you will always remember, maybe a book or story you have written or wanted to write

Ok, all you athletic types out there??

if you are not a person that has exercised in the past; is short, round and lack energy -- when is the best time to exercise?

Nancie bought a wii Fit Plus for us to use and the first few days I did great at getting on and doing it. I could do some of the yoga, the Hula-Hoop and the running. I tried the Boxing but couldn't get the hang of it.

I am not comfortable enough to go to a gym and the weather here right now has not been up for walking at lunch time (snow, rain, wind).

I started to do the wii in the evening but then just was so tired when I got home that I couldn't do much. The mornings - unless I get up earlier than I currently do (5:30) -- I don't know if I can fit it in.

So, would it be ok to maybe try 10 minutes in the morning then do 10 or more in the evening, slowly bringing up my energy/skills so that I can do it longer. Will splitting it up help me build up my staminia so that I can do it longer? Or am I just kidding myself that I can get fit?

I know that when the evenings start staying lighter and the sun comes out, I will be doing a lot of cemetery recording (I have one that I need to finish up (about 2000 more photos to take) and one that I am entering now than I have to totally take all the pictures for it. And then there is Mountain View that has over 125,000 burials that I am working on the photos for. These are when I can walk for hours and hours.

So, is splitting up exercise time ok or do I need to just do it all at once???

Help please!!

Oh my Goodness

according to the scale, I have actually lost a little bit of weight - not much but a few pounds. I guess that is better than nothing, right??

The weather here has been horrible for the last week or so, we have had rain, snow, cold (very cold for us), more rain, wind and more wind.

I had to take the bus all of last week because of the snow -- I don't drive in it and now I think I have to take my car in to be looked at because I think there is a problem. I will admit, I do not know anything about cars except that you need to put gas in them, air in the tires and oil changed. Everything else, forget it, I don't understand.

Now, maybe I am wrong but here is what is happening:

When I get to a corner and am turning right, the car seems to almost studder a bit. Its like you slow to turn, complete the turn then go to put more gas and it almost jerks. Its hard to say without using my hands but it just doesn't seem to move smoothly. And it is only when I turn right, nothing else.

I looked on line and it could be a list of things: a dirty fuel line, a dirty fuel filter and about 20 other things. And of course, it is going to probably cost $$$$ so there goes the savings for my laptop and Amy wants a new mattress set -- heck I am buying a ticket for Lotto Max for $50 million, so who knows.

Anyways, that is about it for now.

Excepts I have blocked a Health Food Company that thought they could post in my comments and have people go to them - I don't think so.

Well, let's see . . . .

what has been happening in my life these last few days.

Nancie purchased a wii Fit Plus for us to use. Who knew that something like that could actually make you sweat but it does. I am slowly working up with the exercises, but have managed to use it every day since we got it. I can do a couple of the yoga poses, the Hula Hoop (that really make you sweat) and I manaaged to move up in the running (ok, it is only for 3 minutes but more than I have ever done.) I am going to try and keep it up and slowly build it up as well.

And I have come to another change in my life. While, yes I need to pay off my debt, I also need to have a little something for me as well. So I am going to try to put some money aside each paycheque and save up for something that I would like --- a laptop to help with my genealogy and working on findagrave as well. I will still pay off one of the bills this year but maybe not in 8 months but 10 months.

I don't know if this is wrong or not, but I think like trying to loose the weight, I need to a goal that is for me, that when the debt is paid off, I will have money to buy the laptop as well.

But the pre-Golden Globes is starting, so Good Night all.

And crap!!!!

Well, yesterday was my weigh in day and I didn't loose anything - I gained!!! **insert angry face here***

I have been eating healthy - no junk - no cheating - nothing!! I have been taking my insulin like I am suppose to (could this be the problem - one of my doctors told me that the insulin can cause me to gain weight).

I know it isn't because I can been walking more and lifting weights (ok, they are only 5lbs little weights) - so I know it is not muscle mass I have gained.

Could it be my body just adjusting to the changes? Am I holding water weight - cause I am drinking about 120 oz. or more of water a day). Could it be because, well I am having problems with, lets say I use to be regular - every morning now I am lucky if it is every couple of days or more. Maybe the weight gain is that I am full of sh*t (yeah, I know what you are thinking)

But I will keep trying and keep walking and I know that at some point my body will go - Hey, she isn't starving, she is moving us - let's help and drop some of this chubbiness.

Tomorrow is payday. I have to figure out the bills. I don't have to buy any pills or insulin this month, so I want to be able to pay the money that I would pay for them onto the bills as a little extra will help lower those balances.

Now, speaking of money. Nancie has always paid room & board, bought groceries, put gas in the car - things like that. Last night, she says she wants to start to pay more but I want her to save for school. She says that she can do both and that she doesn't like me spending all my money for the monthly bills (not including my debts).

I know she wants to be more independent but I feel bad taking more money from her. She can't afford to move out and to tell the truth, I would miss her not being home.

And she doesn't want me to pick her up from work when she works til midnight, she wants to take a cab home. It would take almost all her tip money when she does that - roughly $15 a night. But she says it isn't right or fair for me to not get sleep because I am picking her up.

I have said that we could try it for a night or two and see what the cost is. If it is too much, then I will go back to picking her up.

She doesn't have her license, my being sick and we need someone to teach her to paralel park. I have tried but what I think is easy to understand just confuses her and then we end up getting totally frustrated and get pissed with each other. Besides, the cost of her own car and insurance and gas would probably be a lot more than a taxi cost.

But that is about it. I am just trying to kill the last few mintues before the end of the work day so I can go home and relax.

Oh and Gaile -- I will check out those things that you recommended but I have to find out if they will work with all my pills & the insulin before trying them. Say, do you think we could get them free from you-know-who??? hee hee hee

A sunday posting

Still working on the diet, exercise and life in general.

Yesterday, I didn't post because they were moving the server that hosts my sites - so I didn't want to do anything that might disappear in the transfer. So this morning, I was up at about 8:30 and went to do a post here and couldn't get in -- what the heck????????

So, I put in a trouble ticket and within a few hours, it had been fixed. But because I had to leave to take Nancie to work, I didn't log in and post.

I tried just a few minutes ago on the netbook and it wouldn't take my password or name --- deep breathe, came to this computer and had no problem - will have to see what happens later with the netbook.

Let's see - for the No excuses plan. I love going to cemeteries but have used the excuse that I can't go this weekend or evening or day because it rained and the ground is wet and my feet get wet and etc. etc. etc. You get it, right.

Well to stop this from happening, next Friday I plan to go buy some rubber boots - you know the funky, colourful ones that you see in the stores. Then I will have no excuse not to go walking when it has rained, heck I might even get an umbrella so that I can go in the rain. You would figure that I live on the Wet Coast of Canada, I would have these already, but not having them was a good excuse but no more excuses!! And because I posted it here, I will have to buy some.

Yesterday, I went shopping and bought a bunch of healthy things to eat - carrots, celery, tomatoes, etc. as well as getting some other stuff. I am going to make little bags of things, so that I don't have to do it in the morning, cook up some chicken for my wraps (I like wraps instead of bread). I figure if I have things more organized that I will be better at making my lunch.

That is about all for today, I am going to cook my chicken now and work on some photos - check out the link on the side to see them.

Take care.

A sort of promises, I cheated and sleep . .

Ok the sort of promise:

I have been reading other blogs, forums, etc and it seems that if you want more people to read you than you should have pictures. So, I will try and put more pictures during my blogging time. Who knows, you may even see me in one of the pictures at some time - if that doesn't want to make you come back, then nothing will.

Cheated:

I was so tired this morning when I woke up that I just wanted to stay under the covers and sleep forever which, I just about did - oops. So I was running late and didn't really have time for breakfast, so while I made my lunch, I made coffee and then I went to McDonalds for breakie.

When I arrived at the drive through, there was about 10 cars in front of me, so I parked at the far side, walked in -- there was no line up, ordered (and not my usual Sauage & Egg McMuffin and large orange juice) it was just a small OJ and a regular Egg McMuffin. Then when I left, I went out the door at the far side of the restaurant and walked around it to get back to the car -- a few extra steps are better than none, right???

And speaking of pictures & lunchmaking -- here is my lunch and snacks for the day. Now, I don't necessarily eat everything I bring, but if I have healthy with me than I don't go grab a chocolate bar at the Store down below me (they have pop, chips, candy - nothing healthy).

The wrap today has Spicy Mustard, Chicken and Cheese. I like to have Alpha Sprouts but the store was out of them, so hopefully they will have some this weekend. Maybe so lettuce as well.

Now the sleep - I don't sleep much but when I do, I love to curl up in bed and just be warm and cozy, at night, my kitte, TC usually sleeps on the pillow next to me. Sometimes he will sleep with his head in my hand.

And I am a person that finds coming home to a made-bed is just a wonderful thing, it looks so inviting. And besides TC sleeping with me I have a choice of 4 favorite stuffed animals. Yes, I am 53 and I have stuffed animals on my bed. hmm, maybe that is why I am single - no room in the bed with the stuffed animals and a cat, sometimes 2 cats - Mr Phil does join once in awhile.

But come now, after working all day, wouldn't you just want to climb in and snuggle with these:

Two cows, Eeyore & Momma Elephant and Baby.

Oh, and yes it is right under the window because TC likes to sometimes sleep with the curtain pulled back so he can look out at night. Have to make sure that the other apartment buildings can't see in though and catch me sleeping.

Anyways, that's it for Friday, coffee break is over. I don't know if I will be around tomorrow as they are again moving over our servers to a new place in Chicago.

Maybe this is the problem . . .

I don't eat enough - rather shocking!!!
I thought that I was doing good with food, etc but after yesterday and this morning, tracking the food on sparks - it seems that I am not.

I am suppose to eat between 2030 - 2380 calories a day, yesterday I did only 897 calories and not many carbs, fat or protein.

And mornings seem to be the worst for me. I really thought I was doing not bad but this morning I had:

KELLOGG, Special K Red Berries, 1 serving is 1 cup, totals here without milk, 1 serving
Milk, nonfat, 0.5 cup
Regular Coffee, 1 cup (8 fl oz)
International Delight Fat Free French Vanilla Coffee Creamer, 2 tbsp

and I was full, really full but it worked out to only 215 calories out of the 535 I should have. I am not a breakfast person.

I really need to get more protein in the morning to help with the blood sugar (which was fairly good this morning).

So, not only do I need to get eating better because apparently, not eating enough is what is probably slowing down my metabolism which I need to speed up to loose the weight.

And I need to exercise more -- a lot more but I am not at all comfortable going to a gym or swimming. And I leave for work, it is dark and it is getting dark when I get home. I am thinking of getting the WII exercise program - has anyone had success with it. The board is for sale at Shoppers for $29.99

I did see on the news the other day that there are exercises that you can do at your desk. I am going to find out what they are.

And if you keep coming back, you maybe surprised to see a picture of me - yes, me. I needed one for the sparks site, so Nancie took one - not too bad for an old gal. You never know, I might just post it soon.

But have taken my noon shot, now it is time to eat - tomatoe-basil chicken in a spinach wrap with tomatoes on the side with 32 oz. of water. Yummy!!!!

No More Excuses

in my life.

I haven't written much because I really haven't had much to write about in the past few months. But I am going to try to write more and I am going to express my feelings more (so if you don't want to read it, please don't)

I am trying so hard to change my life. I have been working on my health more and more and surprisingly, I have actually lost weight - about 30lbs since my last procedure in June. Shocking, isn't it.

I am going to try and step up with the exercise and see if I can maybe loose some more by June - 1 year from the last surgery. I am not going to think of it in the numbers, but just take it day by day.

I did join an online group called Sparks People. It helps to track the food you eat, the calories and the exercise that you do or don't do. I just started yesterday, so we shall see.

Nancie bought me weights for Christmas because I have those arms that when you wave goodbye - they are still waving about 5 minutes after.

I am also going to look for a new job. I just hate it here and the women are getting more and more bitchy as time goes by. So, I figure that after 7.5yrs, it is time to move on. Hopefully I will find something before I totally blow up at them and quit. Wish me luck.

The 3rd thing - I am going to pay off my debts. I did manage to pay 1 debt totally off (thank you Nancie) so I have an additional amount to put on the last 2 remaining debts. I hope to, no I plan to have 1 paid off in about 8 months and then the other will be about another 8 months after that.

No more excuses - I am tired of having a crappy job, too tired to do anything, too broke to do anything - I am going to regain my life - one step at a time.

NO MORE EXCUSES FROM ME